Life gives you shit. It does. There are the ups and downs. There are the whirly twists and turns that everyone explains are a normal process of getting through childhood, teen years, adulthood.

It sucks.

Bear with me. Bear with it. It's worth it.

We all have our own shit. It's all relative. Some have crap families, others cancer. Bad boyfriends, bad breakups, super duper stressful financial challenges, emotional roller coasters. We all have some. Some have a lot. So, to generalize and think that this could help any one of you get through this shit is arrogant.

But I've got to try.

I am writing this for me as much as I am for you. Perhaps even more. My life is mad. Right now, I'd say...but it always seems to be mad. You see, I have that perpetual problem called too many things, not enough time, not enough money, not enough support; at the time of writing this, add falling off my horse and hurting myself, trapped in my parents house, separated, struggling to find a "real" job that fits and pays the bills, living up to expectations I don't want, and super sick and tired of it all. Especially the unknowns. And my own lack of confidence.

I have direction. In fact, I have twenty.  But I lack the confidence to make it real. Somewhere along the line, I programmed myself to think like that - in a way that allowed myself to become a doormat, seeing only chaos and pending doom. Okay, maybe not the last one. But in the dark recesses of my mind, I feel it. I go there. Not all the time, but enough to keep me down. And I have no cheerleading section. I wrote that knowing I kind of do. But you can't convince a lonely heart and mind of that all the time.

So, my problems may not be as big as yours. But this is not a "mine is bigger than yours" competition. It never was. This is a "how can I get over, through it, past it" party. So, let’s jam.

I am finding my way through and, in it, I am finding my purpose. So, here I am. And so will YOU. Here is where we begin.